Is there anyone who can’t urinate in a public restroom?

After one cold winter day at school when I was in middle school.

For the rest of my life, it’s uncomfortable to stand and lie down in a public restroom.

This was my biggest worry when I went to the military.

I can’t wrap it anywhere because it doesn’t work well.

Of course, roughly for two years

I never made a mistake (awesome)

I don’t know why

Is it like a defense mechanism?