The cancer level, which has a standard value of ~34, eventually rose to 743, and even in the CT scan that I had been hoping for, I found that the cancers were gradually growing in the pleura of the lungs. I am now resistant to the medicine I am currently taking, Enhertu.
Gemcitabine Cisplatin 3 months, Keytruda 2 years
Padsep 6 months, Padsep + Keytruda 2 cycles
Enhertu 10th session (in progress)
These are the anti-cancer drugs I have been receiving for four years, enduring all kinds of side effects. And now there are no more effective anti-cancer drugs.
In fact, as originally planned, there is a final way to use cytotoxic anticancer drugs of the Taxel series, but in fact, this is an anticancer drug that is suitable in the hope that it will only prolong the period, in other words, it is like a last struggle before death. But this also has huge side effects. Better than any anti-cancer drug I’ve ever taken.
So, medically, doctors consider the treatment to be completely ineffective only when the size or size of the cancer increases by more than 20% with each successive round of chemotherapy. In my case, it wasn’t to that extent, so I decided to just take Enhertu for now. Even though I know there is no cure, I hope it can be delayed as much as possible.
And the water in my lungs is in a bad way, so I’m currently in the hospital and I’m having the water drained, but it’s not even draining well. ㅠㅠ
I have very low expectations. My friend is an executive at a pharmaceutical company, and Korea University Anam is conducting a clinical trial with a drug called Jaejularan, which is used for other cancers, on patients with similar cases as me. So we decided to see if it applies to them and then proceed with it when they are discharged from the hospital next week.
It doesn’t feel like your world is falling apart like it did when you first got cancer. I feel like something has finally come.
That doesn’t mean it’s not sad or scary. It’s unfair, sad, scary, and lonely. But what can I do?
In this situation, I feel like everything could be the last. So, I am even more grateful to those who spent time with me.
I hope that the road to death is not too painful. I hope we can maintain the minimum level of human dignity.
I apologize for posting this on a sunny weekend and thank you for taking the time to read.
ah! This won’t be the last time I write.