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(1)I’m 33 years old. I have depression
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(3)have no relationship with someone even when he is 30 years oldLim
(4)I’ve felt a sense of shame since I hit 30 that I spent my golden years in my teens and 20s without any connection or memories
(5)And that doesn’t mean you can turn back time, so I understand rationally that your brain is unproductive, but the fact that you can’t accept this cruel reality emotionally is the root cause of depression
(6)Everyone else would date and have relationships as early as high school middle school or high school, but I’m so sad that I haven’t even felt the bittersweet taste, and I’m so ashamed that I’m not a true adult
(7)When I was in college, I thought why I was so pathetic when I heard girls talking and cursing behind women, but when I thought about it, it was me who was pathetic, and if I got one or two of them, I could have experienced a relationship
(8)When I was young, my homeroom teacher told me to practice playing the Danso until I heard it. I learned how to make sounds one by one and there was a time when I was the only one left. I felt like I was left behind
(9)Now, even if you look at a couple in a drama or cartoon, you can see a couple outside, especially a uniform couple, and it seems to affect your daily life because it feels like you’re hitting the bone with jealousy and shame
(10)It’s hard to think that everyone’s going to get away from the frustration of not knowing what to do because it’s their first time at this age, but it’s not like a college girl or a high school girl will meet an old man like me
(11)The reality is overwhelming, and these days, I can’t even work at work. I just feel like it’s meaningless to live like this. Not too long ago, I even wrote a suicide note secretly
(12)If there is a next life, please be born as a handsome, popular, multi-talented, or a celebrity-like beauty, so I want to live my life happily
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